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-Falling for a G-
When i seen him i knew i wanted to know him. I was at my homegirl Jessicas
house. We would always be kickin it on her front porch. I use to be with her older brother for the longest, but he went and
got some girl pregnet. Anyways, I seen this guy across the street, he was tall with his head shaved but not completely bald.
He had a earing in his ear and a corona in his hand.
"Ey, Jessica who is that guy?"
"Que, which
one?"
That one right there We both stood up,
"Oh thats Carlos, hes Jonnys friend, ive met him a few
times, hes really nice" It was like he heard us talking about him, cuz him and his friends started making their way over.
Me and Jessica sat back down,
"Hey Carlos you remember my girl Jessica right?" Said Jonny, him and Jessica
had been together for the longest now, he was one of the very few faithful gangsters. Jessica didnt mind him doing it cuz
she use to, he just promised to be extra careful.
"Yeah i remember Jess, i dont think we've met though" I
stood up cuz i knew he was talking about me.
"Oh yea this is Patricia but we all just call her Patty." I
shook his hand and i got caught
staring into his deep brown eyes.
"Ey Carlos sit out here for a few minutes,
i gotta get something from inside the house"
After Jessica and Jonny went into the house, i looked over at Carlos
and then sat down. He sat down too,
"So.... Patty, how you doin?" I had to try and keep calm cuz for some
reason i really liked this guy.
"Im doin good, how bout you?"
"Well i seen this anglitia bontia
across the street and i knew i had to come over here and find out who she is" My face turned so red once he said that.
"That girl must be very lucky to have your attention" I played it off like i didnt know he was talking about
me
"Well you see i wanna ask this girl out sometime, but im not sure if shes tied down or not"
As soon
as he said that Jonny and Jessica walked out, we both stood up.
"So are you coming back tonight Jonny?"
Said Jessica
"Yeah probably around 9:30"
"It was nice meeting you Patty, i hope for us to talk
again soon"
"Bye Carlos"
Me and Jessica waited for them both to leave, and then we sat back
down.
"So what do you think of him?" I didnt even have to say anything she could tell in my eyes that i
really liked this guy. Later that night me Jessica and a bunch of other people were jus kickin it in the living room listening
to some music joking around. I heard a car pull up in the drive way and i looked out the window. It was Jonny and Carlos,
i quickly went into the kitchen, Jessica follwed me.
"Hey are you ok?"
"Do i look ok?" she
started laughing and then we walked back into the living room. He then walked up to me.
"Hi Patty "
"Hi
Carlos....can i get you anything to drink?" We both walked into the kitchen and he then pulled out two coronas and handed
me one. We both took a sip and then, he kept looking at me.
"You know, you have these beauitful brown eyes that
i just cant stop staring into" I smiled and then looked back at him. We were getting closer slowy, i really wanted to
kiss him but i didnt want to rush it. We kept getting closer and closer, and then right before we were about to kiss,
"Oh hey Carlos there you are, come here i wanna introduce you to someone" I was so mad,
we were so close. Carlos
walked away and i took another sip. Jessica then walked in.
"What are you doing in here all alone?"
"Nothing, come on lets go out there" Maybe it was just my imaginiation, i mean how could he wanna kiss a girl like
me, we went back out into the living room and i seen Carlos talking to this girl named Bernice. Word was that she slept with
anyone and everyone. So i kinda took the hint that
she was gonna be the one to get Carlos tonight. The rest of the night
went on. I had one too many Coronas so i decided i was just gonna stay at Jessicas house. People were starting to leave only
a few were still there, but they were getting ready to leave. I was sitting on the couch and Jessica seen the last two people
out the door. She came and sat down next to me.
"So you just gonna crash here tonight huh?"
"Yea
i guess, are you gonna go now?" I asked,
"Yea you know how Jonny is, you know where everything is, dont worry
if someone walks
through the door, its probably just Jonnys friends She left and i was just sitting there, the music
was still playing and i reached for another Corona. I heard someone walk through the door but i didnt pay attention. As i
took another sip of the beer i heard this voice.
"I knew my angilita bontia would still be here" I looked
up and it was Carlos. He came and
sat down all close next to me.
"I thought you went home with Bernice?"
"No i just took her home, i told her i wasnt interested cuz there was someone else on my heart" I started laughing
cuz no one ever turned Bernice down. We were just sitting there on the couch no one said anything for the longest. I fianlly
broke the silence.
"So....Carlos, how old are you?"
"Im 17, i dont look like it though huh?"
I looked over at him and smiled,
"No, but you sure look cute" He then pulled my lips towards his and kissed
me, his kisses were soft and sweet, that night all we did was kiss but i woke up in his arms. Jessica and Jonny had walked
out and woke us up. Jessica walked me to the bathroom. She sat on the tub as i washed my face.
"You didnt....did
you?"
"No of coarse not, i wasnt that drunk, all we did was kiss" She looked at me and asked,
"So is he a good kisser?"
That whole day all i could do was think about Carlos, i didnt know if he wanted
to be with me or anything, i couldve sworn he already had a girl, but thugs never keep one lady. I went home to kick it with
my brother Jr. his ass was always home.
"What are you doing home on a saurday Patty?" He said as i walked
in
"I just came home to change, hey do you know a guy named Carlos?" He looked at me with this really serious
look,
"What the gangster lookin Carlos?"
"Yeah i guess thats him, anyways do you know if hes got
a lady right now?" I was in the kitchen and Jr. came into the kitchen,
"Listen to me Patricia, for your own
good dont get involved with this guy, all kinds of people want him dead, and i dont wanna see you get hurt"
"Im
not a little girl anymore Jr. you cant tell me who i can date i was just asking you a question damn" I went off to my
room and slammed the door. I knew what it felt like to fall for a gangster and i told myself i wouldnt ever do that again.
"Hola Patty"
"Hi Carlos" I was sitting on Jessicas porch waiting for her and Jonny to come
back, when i seen Carlos.
"So....what are your plans for tonight? Im sure a pretty girl like you wont be staying
in doors tonight" Before i could answer Jessica and Jonny pulled up and walked up to us.
"Ey Patty tonight
me and Jonny are going to the carnival do you wanna come with us?"
"Yeah man you can come with us too Carlos"
Jonny said, I was so excited i couldnt wait for that night to come around any faster.
That night we were walking
around and it seemed so perfect. Jessica and Jonny were walking a few feet in front of us and it seemed like every 2 seconds
they would stop to kiss.
"So....Patty, your man doesnt mind you being out tonight without him?" I was eating
my cotton candy and i looked over at Carlos,
"I dont have a man right now, aint your lady gonna get mad that you
aint at home?"
"Nah i dont have a lady right now, they dont like being with a gangster" I looked at the
ground and then he i seen him staring at me
"Ive never minded being with a gangster" We were walking along
the pier and then he stopped and grabbed my hand.
"Well would you mind being with this gangster?" I looked
deep into his sincere eyes I then leaned in to kiss him. That was my way of saying 'yeah i wanna be your girl'. We then started
walking to catch up with Jonny and Jessica. As we were walking looking at the different things
around us, he reached
for my hand and we were walking hand in hand.
The rest of the night went on and we had fun, its was starting
to get late so we went back to Jessicas house. From there Carlos wanted to walk me home.
"Its nice being under
the stars isnt it mija" I looked over at him and kissed him on the cheek
"Anythings nice with you" i
was starting to sound like some love strucken puppy. I didnt want to fall in love with this guy but i really liked him. We
were both standing in front of my house he was kissing me goodnight when we seen this car start going by it then slowed down,
i pulled him
by the arm into the house. I wasnt stupid i knew how all this drive by shit went down.
"Is
there anything i should know Carlos?" As i said that he was looking out the window
"Come on mija you know
how it goes, you know how a gangsters life is" Yeah i knew how it was always having to watch your back no matter what,
at times it was the best life to live and at other times...
Carlos stayed the night at my house but when i woke
up in the morning he was gone. I went over to Jessicas house to talk to Jonny.
"Ok i wanna know, just how many
nortenos want Carlos in a grave?" He looked at me at me with a disippointing look
"Truthfully Patty, i dont
see how he is still alive, they dont get more gangster then him, and your fallen hard, be careful around him" I got up
and took a walk. I thought long and hard about what i was doing. I really liked this guy and all but was it all worth getting
hurt again for? When i got home inside on the table were two dozen roses and a note inside
...Mija, i know
that at times you might not
have faith in us, but you know what
youve made this gangster wanna love
i wanna
love you mija,
your changing me for the better
please stand by me and i promise
i promise not to hurt you
and to love you
cuz i know i already do...
After reading that i was left speechless. I finally told
myself that after only knowing this guy for such a short time that i love him. I was one to fall in love very easily and this
gangster stole my heart away. I was on my way to show Jessica the card when i kept reading the card over and over. When i
arrived Jonny was on his phone.
"Hello....what?!....No of coarse not....no...ok im on my way" Things didnt
sound right, i had a feeling something was wrong.
"Hey Patty" he said, "Listen stay here till i come
back ok?" He then left. I stayed there the whole day i knew it had to do something with Carlos... It was finally around
10 and i heard Jonny pull up. I was hoping Carlos would come out he passenger side but it was only Jonny. He walked
into
the house his head down low.
"Patty... i uhh.... im sorry Carlos was gunned down" Those words shot through
me, they cut like knives. I should have learned my lesson the first time but i was light headed i thought this guy would be
different... Thats what i get for falling in love with a gangster i guess.
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